The Well Within

My very essence was not affirmed.
So I took it all and kept it inside.
Mom was emotionally unavailable
and perhaps she kept me small for different reasons.
I was not affirmed.
But then also,
maybe my essence was uncomfortable for her.
Maybe she didn’t want me to stray too far outside the boundaries/the lines.

Maybe she thought she was protecting me,
keeping me safe.
Maybe this all happened subconsciously for her.
I was left to try and figure out
if I was enough,
who I was,
there was little to no affirmation/confirmation
that I was everything already.

Felt judged,
felt not fully accepted for who I was.
I think I never felt good enough.
I literally have to find myself again,
affirm myself,
and forge a path ahead,
all the while working on my own mind,
telling myself you are enough.

Self-love.
Self-nurturing.
Embrace my gorgeous essence.
Fully accept.
Fully love.
Wrap myself in love.
You are beautiful beyond belief.
Everything about you should be fully honoured.

I have been lost for so long
and yet I have been able to accomplish so much
and remain so strong.
What the hell does that tell me?
You are incredible and I am so proud of you.

Now go,
and discover your unique beauty.

Kathleen